The Feels

Throughout most of my pubescent and adult life I've noticed that my wit and sarcasm can tend to come off as unemotional, ya know like a monster.  So much so that when I'm being completely real and paying a compliment where it is due it's not uncommon for the sentiment to be met with "you asshole" as a friendly "you're welcome" for my generous services.  I don't know if this is something I love about myself but it's part of who I am.

  However, I’m going to let you in on a little secret-  this little monster is actually pretty sappy.  I know, I know, the next few things I’m going to say are probably going to make you feel uncomfortable, because believe you me, talking about emotions and feelings is not something that comes natural to me.  I’m mainly categorized as “a good listener” or the shoulder to cry on.  I remember I was dating a really nice guy and he would always ask “what ya thinkin' about?” to which I would reply “I don’t know, I just had a picture of a rose in my mind for some reason.”  Not really the in depth conversation he was wanting. 

I’ve never been a drama queen, so to offset my laid-back vibe I tend to enjoy movies, shows, internet videos, etc. that bring out some sort of raw reaction from me.  I suppose you could view it as my way of feeling like a human.  I’ve noticed that for some reason I am far more prone to weep over a sappy commercial than a guy that tells me he doesn’t want a relationship.  In layman’s terms:  emotional displacement.  Now that's not to say I have no sympathy.  In fact, I've always felt I might be too empathetic for my own good.  When I see someone in a similar painful situation I've been in I tend to relive those feelings and sort of be the person I wish was there for me during that time.  Here's where I go overboard with it, when I start caring more than the person actually experiencing it.  Once again, not sure if this is a positive or negative for me.

What I can tell you is I completely lose my shit over Dove commercials, elderly people, babies/ animals, you name it.  To show you what I'm talking about here are a few commercials that have ruined me and at the same time gave me the emotional cleanse I needed to even out.

Amazon Prime:  I mean, the poor dog just wanted to be friends with the new baby.  Nevermind that this new baby is going to take all the attention and the dog is gradually becoming an afterthought.  Big shoutout to the sweet Asian owner.  I honestly get chills when I watch this.

Extra Gum:  Good dads being good dads.  Sob fest.

McDonald's:  Just an old sweet man getting a part-time job.  So in love.

Who do you think you are, anyway?!

I'm so glad you asked.  Nobody of consequence.  Just a 30 something female living in the Midwest.  A lover of all things 80s and pop culture references.  I sometimes will Shazam my own voice to see if the song I'm singing is recognized.  Spoiler alert:  hasn't happened, however the National Anthem is vocally challenging.

I have an endless library of thoughts, theories, conspiracies that pop in my head on a daily basis.  I decided to let them spill out and share with the rest of the world.  I spend most of my days having irrational thoughts fearing I am somehow sending out Farmville invites without knowing it.  You could describe my brain as a whirlwind of hypothetical conversations and situations I will never experience.  With that being said, on occasion I'm bound to discover something brilliant.

What to Expect:

1.  Randomness
2.  Obscure pop culture references
3.  Occasional Epiphanies
4.  Past/ Present Anecdotes
5.  Unrelated Analogies

My posts will more than likely vary from funny to serious to thought-provoking.  So enjoy the ride while I try to navigate what the hell it is that I'm trying to communicate.


XOXO,

Gossip Girl

JK!  (That Lady With The Thoughts)